Andai ku lebih tahu akan diriMu | A Malay poem for "you know who you are"

Bismillah.

Di ufuk langit paling utara
Ku lihat Nama mu sungguh indah
Kau perlihatkan detik-detik berlalu
persis wajahMu tanpa suara 
seiring hari yang melabuhkan tirai
menutup episod masa nan pelbagai

Telah Kau ajar Nama-Nama Mu
saat janji azali
namun mengapa aku seolah-olah alpa?
Ku hitung, ku intai
Tafakur, menunggu...berharap
disulam kejahilan
akan DiriMu
yang Maha berdiri sendiri
sedang aku berdiri di malam hari
memanggil-manggil kala melangkah
berbisik-bisik dalam duduk ku
termimpi-mimpi dalam baring ku
seolah Kau jauh...
sungguhpun hakikatnya dekat
aaaamat dekat

Andai aku lebih tahu akan diriMu
sedalam-dalam naluri
agar lebih damai hati ini

sedamai senja jingga di utara
senyaman butir-butir udara
semua itu 
semuanya...
berdiri atas Nama-Nama Mu 
yang paaaaling indah
Engkau Tuhan yang Satu...

- E.Ismail, Kuala Lumpur, 20 September 2016

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A good friend, a reader of this blog whom I deeply respect, sent me the above photo captured by her son. It's breathtaking, it inspired me to write a Malay poem. I apologize to our foreign-readers. I might on another occasion have it translated for you in sha Allah.

I am just happy to be writing from my heart. It's a private space shared with those who share the same vibe. I am not bothered by those who are outside.

It's a joy and such a blessing that despite being apart, our hearts and minds connect.

Thank you. I appreciate you and you know who you are.

Below picture was taken at one favorite spot at my Penang home during my recent trip back home.  I feel the same way about you as I was feeling in the pic - I feel happy, relaxed and so "at home" when I think of you. Our souls must have been on the same rank then, as it is so in-sync now.